Monday Musings

Hey boos....oh gosh I am feeling so lazy today it's unreal...

What I've done today: 
1. Woke up (late)
2. Had a wash 
3. Ate
4. Put on gym clothes 
5. Put on trainers
6. Ate
7. Got to the front door
8. Opened the front door
9. Closed the front door 
10. Ran upstairs
11. Climbed into bed 
12. Stayed in bed 
13. Ate

Even this post is lazy af, I didn't even plan to blog today but I thought if I'm gonna keep my ass in bed I may as well make it a writing day. 

I want a kitten. 

LOOK AT IT!!!! IT'S SO FRICKIN CUTE!!

Sooooft kitty

Waaaaarrmm kitty

Little ball of fuuuuuuuuurrrrr

Happy kitty

Sleepy kitty

Purrrr, purrrr, puuuuurrrrr

So, in conclusion....I'm getting a kitten and I've eaten too much 

F**k It!

Ok, so this is a slightly out of the blue post, I had no intention of blogging today, woke up after a rubbish night's sleep and just wanted to do nothing today. But my mind has been racing non stop and something tipped me off the edge so I started jotting down some thoughts on my phone like I usually do but then thought, you know what, get the lappy out, so I picked up my crappy laptop and here I am. 

I don't know how long or short this post will be, I'm not that fussed, I may delete it after a bit, but for now here it goes.

I was on Instagram like a second ago and I came across this image:

My first response was....well, I didn't get it at first. I didn't get it at second, third, or fourth either. I knew it was supposed to be a joke of some sort because the comments consisted mainly of "lol"s or the cry laughing emoji but I didn't get it at all. It took me a good 5 minutes or so to try and understand what the "joke" was, and I still didn't get it, I had to read the comments to understand wtf this was supposed to mean. And then the penny dropped, actually that's a lie, it still hadn't, someone had tagged the actual woman in this post so I checked her Instagram (as any "normal" person would) and realised that the joke was pretty much this: How can someone with such a hot body be so ugly? .....

You frickin kidding me???

What kinda screwed up society are we living in where we feel that this sort of behaviour is acceptable? I'm actually asking, this isn't rhetorical. Because I really don't know any more. The sheer hypocrisy of some people is just ridiculous nowadays, everyone is harping on about how we should love ourselves, and we should be nice and kind to each other yet, here we are in the year 2016 making fun of people we don't know. BECAUSE OF HOW THEY LOOK. It's bad enough the media tries to remind us daily that we're not good enough through the constant bombardment of images of the manufactured "ideal female (or male)" and it's blatant elimination of those that don't fit it's idea of "perfect" ...you know what, I'm not even going to get into that right now, I'll save that for another post because that's a whole other issue I've got with society. I'll stick with this for now. 


I read the comment that this lady wrote after seeing this photo of herself and felt an overwhelming sense of sadness, because she was hurt by this. How can people be so cruel? Look, I'm not sitting here on my high Unicorn (I know its' high horse but if I'm going to sit on anything it will be a Unicorn) and act like I don't find things funny, or that I haven't laughed at inappropriate jokes before, I wasn't even going to post anything to be honest, I was just gonna take a nap and try and make myself dream about food or whatever but I just thought f**k it.  I don't want to be that person who just sits and watches the world go by. I made this blog because:
 A) I talk a lot anyway so this was a perfect outlet 
AND:
 B) Because I wanted to make people happy somehow, I wanted something I wrote to brighten up someone's day, or help them believe in themselves

 It's a shame that the same people that are screaming from the rooftops for empowerment and solidarity are the same ones making fun of someone they don't even know. But it's ok, it's just Instagram, she won't care...will she? 

You're wondering why I titled this post f**k it right? Well because that's my attitude on life now, f**k it. You can't please everyone, not everyone will like you, not everyone will think you're beautiful, not everyone will think you're funny, intelligent, amazing bla bla bla. The most important thing is that you realise that about yourself, love yourself, be nice to as many people as possible and don't waste your life trying to be what you think society wants you to be, or what the media tells you to be, just be yourself. Be happy. Be kind. F**k it. 

Topshop LBD: How 'Not' To Wear It

Guten tag! Hope all you lovelies are good....as per usual I've been busy working and all that good stuff, but in between work and gym, and eating, and eating, and eating, and work, I've done a bit of shopping and bought myself a few nice things....ooooh I might do a haul for my next post actually, let me know if you actually care what I buy and I'll do one...actually I'll do one regardless, YOU DON'T OWN ME!!!

Fell in deep like with this dress as soon as I  saw it, but it turns out I fell in love with the back of it. So, as any "normal" person would do, I decided to wear the dress back to front. *Thumbs up*

So here it is:

Closer detail of the lace-up-ness







And just in case you're curious as to how it's supposed to be worn.....



Le front                                                                                        Le back 




Apologies for the poor quality of the photos, my mum took them, she thinks she's a pro. 

Mum: "Pose like you are diving...no, no, not like that...why do you not brush your hair properly? You look like a horse dragged you around" 

Anyways, it's from Topshop, cost £59 

Which way would you wear it? 

10 Ways To Stay Focused With Your Weight Loss Journey

Hello darlings, hope you're all doing well....I've been meaning to do this post for a while but could never find the time what with my busy schedule of eating and sleeping....no I actually have been busy with legit stuff like work but yeh, it's still a pretty poor excuse 

So....I've kind of been on a healthier lifestyle kick (kick...do you call it a kick? I don't know, I don't care)...but yes, I've been eating healthily and working out more after gaining some weight in Italy and it's been difficult...very difficult. But here are some tips I found useful in not giving up on your journey.

This is me right now btw. And all the crap in the background is also mine...*SPOILER ALERT* It's all food in those bags :-) * ...I've still got a long way to go but I'm taking it slow this time 

1. Be realistic: 

 Don't set yourself a ridiculous goal like " I'm going to lose 10 stone in a week". It's not going to work and the chances are if it does then it wasn't done the healthy way. Set yourself goals that are possible to achieve; that way you won't feel disheartened if you're not 15 stone lighter after day two....which brings me onto my next point....

2. Have sub-goals:  

You should have your main goal set in place whether that be to lose a certain amount of weight, or to fit into a size that you could never fit into before, but you should also have sub-goals which will keep you going. It helps a lot seeing some sort of progress no matter how small it is. I think one of my recent sub-goals was to see a bit more definition in my legs after 2 weeks...which I have, so yay for me :-) 

3. Don't get drawn in to FAD diets:  

I mean everyone is different, some work as a great kick starter for weight loss but for me, they don't last. Oh gosh, about a year ago I did something called the General Motors diet for one week, just Google it. I was the crankiest son of a gun you could ever come across, hardly lost any weight and ate everything in sight as soon as it was over. I would avoid them. 

4. Don't rush: 

 Everything takes time, and if you want this to be a lifestyle change then let it happen gradually. 

5. Avoid looking at yourself in the mirror for too long: 

Ok, this is a weird one but it's just something I've started doing. I've found that when I stare at myself every day and don't see a change in my body I get disheartened and it sucks for a bit. I still look in the mirror to make sure I haven't grown an extra boob or something (Although if it took me looking in the mirror to know I had a whole extra boob, that's a bit worrying....but you get my drift) but it's for a short period of time, and at the end of the week I can have a proper gander to see what else I need to work on and whether I see any changes...and if I don't then it actually doesn't feel as bad oddly enough. 

6: Eat more veg: 

Yeh whatever, I've heard that one before...yes you have my dear, because it's true! I've developed a close relationship with the humble salad and I have no intention of looking back. It doesn't matter how much exercise you're banging out at the gym, if you're eating isn't up to scratch, you're not going to see the results you may be looking for....there's a reason why everyone harps on about diet. 

7. Make a good playlist: 

You probably wouldn't think it but a good playlist makes a massive difference to a workout (well it does for me anyway)....I can push myself way more when I've got a good song on. I tend to play loud, fast songs with a lot of bass...or, on the other side of the spectrum, some slow sad songs to get me all caught up in my feelings...don't ask me why, it just works 

8. If you don't want to go to the gym. Don't. Or do. Do what makes you happy: 

Not much to say on that...sometimes I don't want to go to the gym because I can't be bothered, in which case I'll go to the gym. Other times I don't want to go to the gym because I'm too tired mentally and physically and just want to sit in my bed and watch The Mindy Project or Heroes Reborn all night...in which case I won't go to the gym. Just double check your reasons for not going, and see which is better for you in the long run. 

9. Wear whatever makes you most comfortable:

It's your body, your workout, you don't have to dress like all these instagram models, but if you want to, then do. I saw someone working out in a denim shirt and jeans or something yesterday and was slightly confused but if that's what she wanted to wear then who am I to stop her? She still did her workout...that being said, I wouldn't recommend jeans...just a thought. 

10: Don't rely on scales to measure your progress: 

Reason 1: Some scales lie...for real. I went on one of those full body measuring machines and it told me I shrunk a couple of centimetres and gained half a stone....went on a different one and it told me something completely different. 
Reason 2: Muscle weighs more than fat
Reason 3: It's not just about the number, it's about how you look and feel; don't let the scales dishearten you. 

Bonus Tip:  LOVE YOUR BODY REGARDLESS!: 

Thank you Mr Cliché... much appreciated. But it's true... I don't care how many times this needs to be repeated, it's repeated for a reason. Don't waste time comparing yourself to others, try and think positively as much as possible, and be kind to yourself. Seriously, be kind to yourself, be kind to your mind, and be kind to your body. I think that's one that people forget nowadays. 

<3 

Thursday Inspiration: Wake Up And Live Your Dreams

I'm not even going to look at the date of my last blog post...let me not embarrass myself 

I thought I'd quickly update you on my ventures over the past few weeks/months....literally just got in from the Theater so I'm slightly on one (on one: to be somewhat ridiculously hyped for various reasons (that's just one definition for it, I'm not about to go through all of them, this one is just the most relevant in this context, close second set of brackets) close first set of brackets) ... so yeh, I'm probably spewing out unnecessary garbage but bear with me.... 

So...I've been in Italy, teaching English and drama to young children...if I had to sum it up in one word it would be: unforgettable. Slightly cliche' I know, but it's true nonetheless.... my experience has opened up a whole other side of my mind that was clouded by the general dregs of everyday life...ie: WORK, MONEY, GYM, BILLS, MONEY, GYM, BILLS....Actually I'll take gym out of that because I like the gym....but yeh, it was a beautiful experience, I met some amazing families and worked with some awesome people, ate great food, and was blessed to spend most of my nights staring up at the stars

Snaps coming soon... but for now I'll leave you with this:

I'm about to make a scary-ass decision that will change my life for a long time...I pray it's for the better but I won't know till I've done it. All I have is my faith. If there is anything you want to do or be in life, don't let anyone or anything stop you, not even yourself (unless you want to be a horrible person or a murderer, don't do that, I'm not directing this to you,)

Blue Hair (FINALLY!)

*Insert excuse as to why I haven't done a post in a while*

Hey hey heeeeeeyyy...Hope all you beauties are doing well...I feel somewhat compelled to say that if you're going through something stressful, or sad, just hang in there buddy, it will pass <3 

So, my hair is blue...it was red for a while and then one night I was just like NOPE, I WANT BLUE NOW! And the rest is history... kinda

I'll try and take some better quality photos but you get the jist... I feel like a mermaid...but with feet..and living on land...and less graceful. 

Anyone thinking of dyeing their hair blue??? 

<3